The sabbatical blog
This blog has been sitting waiting to be written for quite a while. It has taken a series of insights and prompts and suggestions to get me to this point, and here I am.
I have to accept that there are many wonderful writers out there that I might never come across, whose work I might never read, and that there is a limit to how many books I can read. Peter Carey might end up being one of those whose books never make it to my bookshelf or Kindle, but some random internet search threw up something he wrote at the end of NaNoWriMo in 2009. Not ringing any bells? National Novel Writing Month. The challenge of this event is to write a novel in a month. Realistically, it will be a draft, but it’s a fun idea. I haven’t done it, and am certainly not at the point where I think I will do so, but who knows?
I’m going to replicate (with some editing) a large proportion of the letter he wrote, then get to the point.
Writing is the easiest thing in the world. Anyone can do it. It’s like hitting a tennis ball against a wall. It’s like swimming. Anyone can learn. You don’t have to be the best. You don’t need to compete in anything. On the other hand, you may aspire to be a celebrated star.
Like swimming, like playing tennis, there are people writing at all levels. If you just want to amuse yourself writing the weekends, just keep on keeping on. If you want to bash out a novel, you need no more advice than to keep on keeping on.
But if you dream of making something original and beautiful and true, if you imagine seeing your book reviewed, or in the window of a book store, you’re in the same position as the ambitious swimmer—you’ve got a lot of training to do, a lot of muscles to build, a lot of habits to start establishing right now, today.
If you know what these good writing habits are, there’s nothing more I can give you. Perhaps you know what I’m going to tell you—you have to write regularly, every day. You have to treat this as the single most important part of your life. You do not need anything as fancy as inspiration, just this steady habit of writing regularly even when you’re sick or sad or dull. Nothing must stop you, not even your beloved children. If you have kids you do what Toni Morrison did—write in the hours before they wake. If you wish to be a like the champion who swims for four hours every day of the year, you will need extraordinary will. You either have this or you don’t, but you won’t know unless you try.
Let’s say you (quietly, secretly) want to be a genius. Then you must teach yourself to be self-critical. Trust me—your own uncertain opinions are worth one hundred times more than the judgments of your friends. Your friends love you and are may be very smart. But they cannot imagine what you have not yet imagined. So don’t show them stuff you fear may not be right.
If you feel at all unhappy with your work, there is a good reason for it. Trust your judgment. Write the draft again, and again. This is the strength you must build—to work alone, in solitude, and write and rewrite and rewrite. Even when you finally succeed in making the original work you wished, you will still live with doubt and uncertainty. All writers learn to live with this. In this way you and I feel exactly the same about our work today.
If you ever read one of my books I hope you’ll think it looks so easy. In fact, I wrote those chapters 20 times over, and over, and over, and if you want to write at a good level, you’ll have to do that too.
That is the first half of the good habits you must develop.
Here’s the second half.
First, turn off your television. The television is your enemy. It will stop you doing what you wish to do. If you wish to watch TV, you do not want to be a serious writer, which is fine.
But if you do pull that plug you’ve just created time for that exercise which is going to build up your writing muscles like nothing else. It’s called reading. Perhaps you are already reading good books for several hours a day, in which case you don’t need me to preach at you. Forgive me. I only mention this because I have met an extraordinary number of beginners who don’t think they need to read anything too much.
I don’t doubt these people enjoy their writing, and perhaps they will even get to publish something. But you can not play the top game without reading every day. There are so many extraordinary books waiting for you, some writing by living writers, the majority by those a long time dead. This is not because writers used to be better than they are now, but because a lot of generations have come before us and we would be crazy not to know what miracles they achieved.
Some of the great books are about people with lives just like you. Some will have characters you can ‘identify’ with, but some of the very greatest will tell stories you could never have imagined, were written in languages you cannot speak, and tell the stories of people like none we have ever known.
Now you’ve killed the TV, you should invest in a very good dictionary.
I know it is a major drag to stop reading and look up a word in a dictionary, but it is less of a drag than continuing to read not knowing what the story really means. No-one wants to do it. I never want to do it, but it is always worth the trouble. In my own case I often write the new word down, not because I am stupid, but because it helps me remember it.
– Peter Carey
I have learned that I cannot be happy doing something half-heartedly. I want either to go at it full pelt or let it go. Sometimes both in that order.
So – I am taking a year off from my day job from the end of the month to write my novel (and some other things, but mainly to write).
When two people at work independently suggested I think about taking a sabbatical I thought (a) it won’t be possible and (b) I should do that. Fortunately I was wrong on (a) – I have more than a few pessimistic moments – and went with (b).
There were a number of things which clinched it for me:
– I realised that the only thing stopping me was the limitations in my own head. I found reading Escape 101 helped deal with that nonsense.
– In my day job, I have been trying for a long time to build a team that doesn’t need me – and it doesn’t now. So I’m not letting anyone down (big issue for me, rightly or wrongly).
– I ended up with not one single, good, reason why I should not give this a go. What’s the worst that could happen? I find out that I’m not as good at this as I hoped I would be. And…oh, that’s not a big deal, there are plenty of other things I’m not great at.
– I could hear and feel the difference when I started talking about taking a year out for this book – I was properly excited.
– The thing which spoke most to me in Peter Carey’s “letter” was “if you dream of making something original and beautiful and true” – that’s what I want to do.
So here we go…